Friday, September 30, 2005
Being What Is
The same with clothes. Over the last few years I've dropped two sizes from UK size 12 to size 8 depending on what I'm wearing. If I'm wearing baggy jeans it's UK size 10; tight-fitting is size 8. I still have some tops that are size 12. Time for new clothes.
The above examples are literal as well as metaphors for knowing Self. Wearing make up that is a shade darker than my actual complexion is the equivalent of trying to hold on to an old idea of self even when other identities have been revealed.
For many years I thought of myself as human with human identities such as race, gender, nationality, sexuality, daughter, sister, friend, etc. As human, I was subject to the beliefs of humanity about sickness and death. I was resigned to the fact that my lot is to grow old and die.
Then my view of Self expanded and I realised I wasn't just human. I have had numerous experiences of myself during meditation as the Light in all that is without beginning and end.
I also see this Light as Divine Love, the essence of All There Is. This is my dominant view of reality. I feel Love from everything and everyone. The Universe is Love.
I've noticed now that when I have a bath I feel the love from the bubble bath, the water and the bath itself. My skin feels like someone is caressing it. Last night, I tasted the bath water and it tasted sweet.
So which is real - the human, or Divine Love? Well I see myself as Divine Love having a human experience. Everything is Divine Love. It's a matter of always remembering that Love is all there is.
As for my makeup, whether I continue to use the old shade of foundation or change to a lighter shade, it will not change what is.
I AM THAT I AM.