Saturday, October 08, 2005


This Blog is Now Closed

For new articles go to Infinite Life, Infinite Joy.

With love,


Articles in Alphabetical Order

Dear readers,

Following is a list of all articles in this blog in alphabetical order.

For my current and previous blogs see My Other Blogs.

Love and gratitude to Ben Gilberti for designing the fractal.

Unless otherwise stated, all articles are copyright © 2005-2015 Enocia Joseph. You have my permission to copy and distribute articles for personal use only. Please include the link to the particular blog. For any other use other than personal, and any comments you might have, please email me at


With love,

-- A --

A Love That Knows No Bounds
Appearances Can Be Deceptive
A Recipe for Oneness
A World in a Grain of Sand
Are You Seeing the World Through a Polka Dot?
Are You Living in a Blinkered or Open Now?

-- B --

Be Careful What You Wish For
Be Proud of Who You Are
Be True to YourSelf
Being in Love
Being in Rapport With All
Being What Is
Beyond Definitions

-- C --

Can Self-Realisation Be Taught?
Catching the Gift and Being in the Flow
Choose an ID
Co-creating with the One
Collective Dreaming
Conditioned and Unconditioned
Conscious Creation
Contemplating Nature
Correction! I Only Want to Love and Be Love

-- D --

Dedication to a Beloved Friend
Does Practise Make Perfect?
Dressing You in Love

-- E --

Embracing the Vacuum
Expecting a Cat to Behave Like a Dog
Exploring the Then and Now

-- F --

Follow Me
Form Versus Formlessness
Formlessness, Being Like a Bee and Losing Your Mind
For My Beloved Friend, OM
Freedom is Imagination
Freedom Speaks

-- G --

Get a Life!
Give Peace a Chance
Giving Birth
God Consciousness
God in Flesh
God in Flesh - Part 2
God Is
Going with the Flow
Gratitude is Joy is Love is Bliss

-- H --

Having the Eyes To See What is Already Present
How Long is a Piece of String?
How to Avoid Being Programmed

-- I --

I Believe in Magic
If and Is
Is It Necessary to Focus on the Positive?
I Still Love You
It's a New Day
It's Either Love or Bullshit!
I Wish

-- J --

Just Say Now

-- K --

Keep It Simple, Stupid (KISS)
Kicking the Habit
Knowing is Letting Things Happen

-- L --

Land of Hope and Glory
Let the Universe Take Care of the Details
Life or Death, What's the Difference?
Listen Very Carefully
Living in a Love Cocoon
Love Addiction
Love is My Only Insurance
Love Lifted Me
Love Songs
Love's Tip of the Day

-- M --

Making the Inner and Outer One
Man and Ideas
Mind Control
Mixed Intentions
Modelling Part 2 - Self Mastery
More Examples About Focusing Your Attention
My Vision of Peace

-- N --

No Fear in Love
No Such Word as "Can't"
Nothing Can Separate Us From the One
Now is the Time

-- O --

Of Innocence and Consequences
Only Love Matters
Order in Madness
Our Daily Bread
Our True Wealth
Owing and Owning

-- P --

Playing the Game

-- R --

Receive What Has Already Been Given

-- S --

Silence is Alive
Songs Do It For Me
Staying Centred
Straddling Two Dreams
Sweet Freedom

-- T --

That Little Genius
That Was Then; This is Now
The Art of Surrender - How to Be a Human Being
The Beauty of Formlessness
The Conference
The Director's Cut
The Eternal Now
The Game of Hide and Seek
The Game of Let's Pretend
The Glad Game
The Journey Continues
The Joy of Giving...Maybe Not
The Inner and Outer are One
The Key to the Kingdom
The Kingdom of Heaven is Now
The Meaning of Praying Without Ceasing
The Nature of Being
The Nature of the Universe
The One in All and Judgment
The One is a Media Junkie
The One is in All Religions But is No Religion
The One Power in All is Love and Wisdom
The One Self in All
The Passive Self Versus The Active Self
The Power of Love
The Purpose of Prayer
The Purpose of This Website
The Realm of the Unknown
The Silent Witness
The Smoke
The Tree of Love
The Truth Paradox
The Ultimate Challenge
The Wonder of You
There are No Dilemmas, Only Choices
There is No Life to Risk
There is Only One Narrator and One Protagonist
There is Only One Power
Time Versus the Eternal Now
To Be Alone
To Be or To Be?
Too Old to Hopscotch?
To Remember is To Be
Travelling Companions
True To The Music

-- W --

We are Always Right
We are Source Codes
What are the Chances?
What is Intention?
What is Intention? - Part Deux
What is Intention? - Part 3
What is Love?
What You Seek is Right Where You Are
Where Do You Focus Your Attention?
Why are We Waiting?
Without a Cause

-- Y --

You're Thinking Too Much
You've Got It


Mixed Intentions

The other day I watched Britain's Next Top Model. The girls are invited to meet a top casting agent where they have to do a mock-audition for an ice cream commercial. Their brief is to look sexy and animalistic while enjoying the ice cream. One model, who is also studying for her PhD, is not happy with the brief. Her audition goes badly. The model receives, what she considers to be, harsh criticism from the casting agent, who advises her to make up her mind whether she wants to be a model or be an academic. The agent tells her she is not fully present. The model takes the feedback on board. She decides she would like to be a model. On her next audition, she performs better because she is a lot happier.

What the model was going through was a classic case of mixed intentions. What do I mean?

Every group – religious, spiritual teaching, philosophy, or other beliefs - have an intention. The intention is the group’s core belief or premise for forming the group, which is the group’s filtering system for interpreting reality.

Over the years I’ve joined many different groups. I am always drawn to a particular group because my intention matches the group’s intention. As time goes by, if the group still matches my intention, I remain in the group. The moment my purpose for joining the group has been served, I now have a new intention. This new intention is to leave the group and focus on another intention that fits in with who I am. If I don’t leave I end up straddling two realities: the old intention that I no longer support; and the new intention that is pulling me away from the group. This straddling of two worlds is what I refer to as "mixed intentions." When I have mixed intentions, I find I am now opposing the intention of the group, which will inevitably create inner conflict within me. Only when I leave (or withdraw my intention from that group) am I fully integrated so I can focus my attention on my new intention.

I've been in a state of mixed intentions for a while. My purpose for being on the path was to "wake up" to who I am. This intention attracted me to equivalent groups. Then I became aware of who I am, but I was still in forums with people who consider themselves still "asleep" or trying to wake up. My rationale for staying was I was having so much fun with other members, and it was a good place to share my work. I know that I don't need any mediator to know who I am, but my continued presence gives the impression that I am there to study the teaching.

It's now time to stop being in two-minds and focus on being true to who I am. I am disconnecting from all groups who are focusing on self-realisation or awakening. I have already achieved this. Time to live out my life with joy.

Naturally, I have made friends in these groups. Does the friendship end now that I've left those groups? That depends on whether our friendship was based solely on shared beliefs. True friendship, for me, is one that transcends beliefs and ideologies; true friendship is about loving without expectation. So, it remains to be seen whether we remain friends or not.

This blog represents an old chapter, an old intention. It is now closed.

I've started a new blog called Infinite Life, Infinite Joy, which is about my experiences of being true to myself. See you there, maybe.

Be happy.



Contemplating Nature

For me, nature is symbolic of the One.

When I contemplate the qualities I see in nature, I am acknowledging these qualities in me for the One is the same One in all.

I could wax lyrical about the qualities I have observed, but I'm going to list them instead. In no particular order, they are:


(I shall add more if I think of them).

I am all of these qualities and more.

Love and Light,

Friday, October 07, 2005


Receive What Has Already Been Given

"Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night." (Psalm 1: 1-2)
I'm on a bus ride travelling during rush hour. I'm contemplating our true wealth. No, I don't mean the stuff of modern society but the substance of all that appear. I am contemplating the truth that all things come from this mysterious substance also called Divine Energy, Love, Intelligence, Source, Power or the One.

I am contemplating the Intelligence behind traffic lights that create order on the roads.

I am contemplating the Intelligence that moves people as they rush about to their various destinations.

I am contemplating the Creative Intelligence behind clothes, food, and stuff I can see in the shops.

I am contemplating the Energy that powers the many different transports including the bus I’m riding on.

I am contemplating the Energy that lights up the many buildings around me.

I am contemplating the Source that produces such abundance and beauty in nature.

I am contemplating the Energy that appears in infinite variations of colours, textures and forms.

I am contemplating the Source of every thought, every idea, every action, everything.

I am contemplating the same Creative Intelligence interpenetrating my whole being.

In another bus a woman sits next to me. She is twice my size. Her body feels solid and her arm is crushing mine. I adjust myself in the seat but I’m still not comfortable. Doesn’t she realise her body is taking up too much room? I had a similar experience few days ago when a woman of similar size sat next to me and her body was crushing me to the wall. When I explained my predicament she looked offended. How do I tell this passenger her arms are crushing mine without offending her? Aha, I will not speak to her but receive what is already present.

So I contemplate Divine Energy around me that is taking the form of comfort. I have all the comfort in the world; all I have to do is receive what is already present. "Yes, I receive comfort now." The woman's arm now feels all soft and squishy, rather like jelly (jello). Crikey, I'm sitting next to a jelly mound! Hmmm! Is it strawberry or raspberry? Yum! I'm now very comfortable, so comfortable that I can sit like this forever. Eventually, another seat becomes available and the woman swaps seats. The next passenger that sits beside me is more my size so I have ample room to move about. Damn! I was so enjoying my jelly!

Everything I will ever need already exists as pure Energy. This Energy can take any form; there are no limits. All I have to do is know that this Energy is everywhere present and receive.

Divine Energy is my true wealth

Love and Light,

Thursday, October 06, 2005


Our True Wealth

"The kingdom of heaven is at hand." (Matthew 10: 7)
The world we live in is wealthy beyond belief. Each of us is more wealthy than we would ever dream of. This wealth is right in front of us.

What is this wealth?

Have you ever wondered about the amount of creative intelligence needed to sustain the world we live in? What about all the energy used to keep us in health, and the energy we use to think? Have you ever wondered about all the energy we use to make mechanical stuff and the energy we use in electricity? Don't forget the energy that sustains nature. While I know that the world can be even more beautiful and perfect, it is still awesome to think of how much intelligence already exists right here and now. What about the intelligence that sustains the universe and other galaxies? Mind boggling, isn't it?

Well, this Energy is our true wealth.

How does one get access to this wealth?

When I studied pranic healing, we were taught that prana (also known as chi, ki, mana, the breath of life) is the energy or "life-force" that sustains our bodies and keeps us in good health. The main source of prana is the sun, the earth and the air. To access this energy you simply put out the intent which makes you receptive to the energy, which you can channel to anyone that needs it or help you "create" what you need.

Actually, this life force is everywhere. It is Energy in its purest form which is giving manifestations to the various worlds and realities. One way I access this energy is by intending the Energy through my senses, meaning, I intend that every moment I see, feel, taste, smell or hear something or someone, I am receiving Energy.

Another way to get access to this Energy is to realise that I am Energy.

Now do you see how simple it is to be sustained? Food is only an infinitesimal part of sustaining your health. You can be sustained by simply drinking the Energy through your senses.

Yesterday evening on my bus journey home, I observed this Energy behind every movement, every object, everyone I saw, cars, buses, in shops, everywhere. I drank this Energy in like one would drink water from a tap.

Is it the same Energy behind all forms? Surely they must be different, given how much variations of forms there are?

There is only the One Source of Energy. The same Energy that gives me the ideas to write is the same Energy that is used to build a car. This Energy is pure in intent. How we use it is another matter.

So I've got access to pure Energy, now what?

Remember that this Energy has intelligence; and it is creative or you wouldn't have the diversity of forms around us. Also, it is the same Energy that we use to think. This Energy doesn't differentiate whether our thoughts are for "good" or "bad." The Energy simply is. You have to use it with pure intent, whatever that means for you.

Know also that this Energy can take any shape or form; there are no limits. Look around you and you can see that it is the same Energy appearing according to man's belief.

So put out the intent that you are receiving the Energy or that you are the Energy and you can send it wherever you want it to go in thought or intent. When you are not using the Energy, put out the intent to let it flow through you and make your whole body whole and everything perfect.

Our true wealth - "the Kingdom of Heaven" - is right here and now. Have fun with it.

Love and Light,

Wednesday, October 05, 2005


Love is My Only Insurance

Last night on a bus ride home, this woman got on. She was carrying this long and flat package, at least it looked that way to me. The bus driver asked her whether it was a mirror and she said yes. He told her to be careful. She and her friend sat a few seats in front of me. At one point the driver stopped the bus and asked the lady to swap seats. He said "The mirror could fall on someone's head and injure someone." The woman stood for the rest of the journey.

I've heard about being careful but this takes the biscuit. Come on! What are the chances of that mirror bouncing on someone's head? I guess the driver was protecting his livelihood the only way he knew how.

We all have faith. For most people it is faith in fear, the worst that can happen. It's like the bus driver who had faith in someone being injured rather than having faith in his own ability as a safe bus driver, and faith in the woman's ability to carry the package.

We have so much faith in insurance companies, don't we? Hey, have you considered insuring your legs, boobs, belly button, butt, teeth, hair, nose? Why not go for broke and insure all of your body, including your entire life?

Don't forget medical insurance because you never know when you're going to get run over by a bus and need medical assistance. You don't want to depend on the State when you can have the best treatment as a private patient.

You also need insurance for your home as you can't trust people; people want your stuff. When you are deprived of your stuff, we (insurance companies) will help you get them back, provided you can prove you had them in the first place.

Don't forget you need car insurance; you've got to be safe as there are lots of maniacs out there. The car manufacturers may have left out an important facility, you never know about these dimwits.

You're going on holiday? How lovely for you! You'd better take out some travel insurance as you never know what kind of disease you might catch from foreigners; and you can't trust foreign hospitals. At least with insurance, you'll receive the best medical treatment; it will be like home away from home.

And while you're away, have you considered taking insurance against natural disasters as you never know when Mother Nature is going to do her thing.

Incidentally, in the UK, there is this advert on television where they are using a dog as a symbol. Without the dog you are very unlucky. Hmmm! I've heard of "Acts of God" not "Acts of Dog!"

Now that you've got everything covered, you're completely safe...well almost. We also have to keep an eye on you to protect you from harm. According to a documentary I watched on television recently, London is the most watched capital in the world. Boy, oh, boy, did George Orwell get it right about Big Brother watching you? Anyway, the police would argue that they are watching you for your own good, to protect you from harm. This is love, isn't it? Yeah right.

What about people who think of the world as manifestation of Divine Energy? Then again, there's is positive energy and negative energy. There are all these negative thought-forms and elementals just waiting to lodge on to your chakra and make you think bad thoughts and have a sad life. You have to protect yourself against these little bastards, right? So you create energy shields around you to protect yourself. You even pray for protection. More fear to put your faith in. Sigh!

I've done the trusting in insurance companies, the law, having energy shields and even prayed for protection. Where has that got me? Faith in fear? Well I've had it. It's time for a new type of faith. Before I elaborate, I'll like to make the following point.

Now I am very much aware that travel insurance is compulsory. So I won't break any "laws" by not getting travel insurance, but I'll treat it the way I treat a bus ticket, something to help you travel in that reality, not something to protect me against illness.

I believe in insurance, but my insurance is Divine Love. I have every faith in Love.

I trust that Love is all around me and because that is my focus, that is my experience.
I trust that when I travel I am travelling in Love and Love can't hurt me.
I trust that Love is the substance of my being so I expect to be whole.
I trust that Love watches over me and there is nothing to fear.

With Love Insurance, I've got everything covered.

Love and Light,

Tuesday, October 04, 2005


No Such Word as "Can't"

Did your parents ever say to you, There is no such word as "can't." If they did, they were so right.

I can't do this. Says who? You can do anything you just choose not to do it. Besides, when you use the word "I" you are calling on the power of the One I Am in all. You are saying the One "I" cannot, which is immensely powerful. What you believe the "I" cannot do you cannot do.

Can't disempowers, while can and choosing empowers.

Remove all "can'ts" from your vocabulary this day. Choose.

I can't choose.
Yes you can choose or you can choose not to choose, which is also a choice.
I can't understand you.
Yes you can or you can choose not to understand me, which is also a choice.
I can't hear you.
Yes you can hear me, you just choose not to listen, which is also a choice.
Oh, bugger off!
Congratulations! You have mastered today's topic.

I can because I choose I can.


Monday, October 03, 2005


The Inner and Outer are One

"When you make the two one, and when you make the inner as the outer and the outer as the inner and the above as the below, and when you make the male and the female into a single one, so that the male will not be male and the female not be female, when you make eyes in the place of an eye, and a hand in the place of a hand, and a foot in the place of a foot, and an image in the place of an image, then shall you enter the Kingdom." (The Gospel of Thomas)
I keep revisiting this quote over and over again. Here we go again.

What does the inner and the outer mean?

The inner is the world of the One, Reality, that is free from all dogmas, concepts and rituals. It is infinite purity and perfection; it is infinite Love. The inner is my true home. In the inner I don't have a body as I have in human form, I am pure light, pure awareness. There is no sense of myself or other, I simply am.

The inner has been experienced by many who have had near death experience as Light. Some people believe this Light to be God. Others, including myself, have experienced this Light in meditation or yoga. We are all that Light.

The outer is what we experience as forms. This computer I'm typing on is part of the outer. It could also be perceived as an effect of ideas that already exist in Mind. Thus, everything in the world of forms can be perceived as effects from the One Cause. My body in the outer is the cause of the inner. In other words, things which do appear on the outer are effects of that which are in the inner. There, therefore, appears to be a Law of cause and effects at work.

The problem is there is a tendency for one to be so mesmerised by the outer that you believe it is the only reality. You then try to change things in the outer instead of leaving the outer alone and revert to the inner. Changing the outer is like trying to change your reflection in a mirror.

When I continue to see the outer as an effect of the inner, there is a danger of creating a duality of the inner versus the outer. In truth, there is no outer versus inner; the inner and outer are one and the same. It is a truth everyone has to realise for himself. Then, and only then, is the One made manifest. You are then Spirit-man.

The purpose of life is to live from an awareness of One; to live as Spirit-man. Instead of seeing the world of forms as an offshoot of the inner, see all forms as the One taking infinite forms as solids, liquids, gas, light, and so much more.

For instance, this computer is still a computer but it will act in a different way depending on who is interacting with it. With someone who only believes in a material universe, a computer is just a mechanical tool that does as it is programmed. With someone who believes in ideas and Mind, a computer is an effect of Mind which one can influence from Mind. However, for someone who realises that the inner and the outer are one, this computer is the One in manifestation.

The One is not under any known laws as the One is unconditioned. With the One, all things are possible.

There is only One. The inner and outer are one and the same.

The One is infinite perfection, love, joy, wisdom, freedom and Good.

Love and Light,

Sunday, October 02, 2005


Order in Madness

"So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it." (Isaiah 55: 11)
Have you ever had an experience when things seem to go wrong only to discover it was all in divine order? I had such an experience yesterday.

I'm on my way to the library to do some work. At the bus station I notice this woman standing next to me who looks very familiar. Is she our neighbour? She looks like her? Surely she would have recognised me if she was. So I look away. I'm still wondering whether it is her or not. When my bus arrives I take a closer look, it's not her.

The Internet is not working in the library. I type some articles on Word and save then on disc. After working for two hours, I hop on the bus into town. Too late I discover I'm on the wrong bus. Bloody Nora! Hang on a minute! There's no way I could have got on the wrong bus for no reason. There must be something Big Me is trying to show mini me, something I need to see. So I take the wrong bus to the local station. As soon as I arrive at that station another bus arrives which I take back to where I intended to go. When I get off the bus, who should I see walking towards me? My neighbour. She doesn't recognise me so I let her go. The detour wasn't a detour at all, but my thought finding a way to be made manifest.

That experience is another demonstration that the thought of a thing is the thing itself. It's no longer about attracting similar thoughts but the very thing itself. If I think of my neighbour I attract the same neighbour. So I have to be very careful what I think of.

I also have to be very clear about my intent. I have now made it very clear that only what I consciously think of is made manifest; dreams (as in night dreams) don't count.

Incidentally, last night I watched the film, The Shawshank Redemption again. It is about a man, Andy Dufresne (Tim Robbins) who has been imprisoned for a crime he didn't commit and his experiences in prison. Andy never gives up hope that he will one day be free. He has in mind where he is going to live and what he's going to be doing. He even suggests to his best friend in prison, Red (played by Morgan Freeman), that they could work together. In one scene, Andy tells Red that if he is ever released, he should go to a forest where he will find something buried near a tree. When Andy escapes from prison he heads off to the place of his dreams. Later Red is released and he follows his friend's instructions to the exact spot in the forest where he finds a letter from Andy and some money. Red breaks his parole and goes in search of his friend so they can be together.

What struck me about this scene is the faith Andy had that he was going to escape from prison and leave the money in that spot for Red to find. Andy's one-pointed intent is one that will always achieve whatever the sender intended to achieve. All the sender has to do is believe.

Be careful what you think of; it might come true.

All my love,

Saturday, October 01, 2005


The Glad Game

"Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all ye lands. Serve the LORD with gladness: come before his presence with singing. Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name." (Psalm 100: 1, 2, 4)
Do you moan about how awful your life is and wish it would change for the better? Are you grateful for what you have now?

In the film, Pollyanna, a young orphan arrives in a town to live with her aunt who knows nothing about love let alone looking after a young girl; and the locals are always complaining. But Pollyanna has a different perspective of life. She was taught to be glad about what you already have. Pollyanna’s optimism soon influences everyone in the town, including her aunt.

No matter what your situation is there is always something to be glad about. To be glad is to be appreciative of what you already have Now. Being glad about something is also blessing whatever you have now, which is instantly multiplied.

In the Bible there is a story of a widow who is in debt and she is afraid her sons are going to be taken into bondage. She asks the prophet, Elisha, for assistance. Elisha asks her what she has and the woman says she only has a pot of oil. Elisha advises her to borrow as many vessels as she can from her neighbours and do the following:

"And when thou art come in, thou shalt shut the door upon thee and upon thy sons, and shalt pour out into all those vessels, and thou shalt set aside that which is full." (2 Kings 4: 2-7)
Huh? She has been asked to go into her house and shut the door from everyone, even her sons, and start pouring from the one pot of oil she has into the other containers. This takes some kind of faith, doesn't it? I’m sure the widow's neighbours must have asked her why she wanted to borrow their jars. I don’t suppose she told them what she was about to do. They would have laughed at her. She simply followed Elisha's instructions which got her out of debt.

Now, the Scriptures don’t go into the details about how the oil was multiplied. I would imagine Elisha must have blessed the oil on the widow's behalf, and the woman's belief also helped. Also, to "shut of the door" is symbolic of communing with God or one’s God-Self. Out of one jar of oil, the widow was freed from debt.

There is so much to be glad about. When you are glad about something, it makes you focus on all the good you already have in your life.

I am so glad about the unlimited Good I have in my life right now.

With love,

Friday, September 30, 2005


Being What Is

After I had put on foundation cream on my face this morning it suddenly occurred to me that the skin tone on my face was a shade darker than on my neck and the rest of my body. Hmmm! I need to change my foundation to a shade lighter. How come I haven't noticed this before? I guess I've got used to wearing this shade because that was my skin tone. Oh well, at least I've noticed it now.

The same with clothes. Over the last few years I've dropped two sizes from UK size 12 to size 8 depending on what I'm wearing. If I'm wearing baggy jeans it's UK size 10; tight-fitting is size 8. I still have some tops that are size 12. Time for new clothes.

The above examples are literal as well as metaphors for knowing Self. Wearing make up that is a shade darker than my actual complexion is the equivalent of trying to hold on to an old idea of self even when other identities have been revealed.

For many years I thought of myself as human with human identities such as race, gender, nationality, sexuality, daughter, sister, friend, etc. As human, I was subject to the beliefs of humanity about sickness and death. I was resigned to the fact that my lot is to grow old and die.

Then my view of Self expanded and I realised I wasn't just human. I have had numerous experiences of myself during meditation as the Light in all that is without beginning and end.

I also see this Light as Divine Love, the essence of All There Is. This is my dominant view of reality. I feel Love from everything and everyone. The Universe is Love.

I've noticed now that when I have a bath I feel the love from the bubble bath, the water and the bath itself. My skin feels like someone is caressing it. Last night, I tasted the bath water and it tasted sweet.

So which is real - the human, or Divine Love? Well I see myself as Divine Love having a human experience. Everything is Divine Love. It's a matter of always remembering that Love is all there is.

As for my makeup, whether I continue to use the old shade of foundation or change to a lighter shade, it will not change what is.



Thursday, September 29, 2005


Be Careful What You Wish For

As I've been writing about focusing my attention only on what I want, I feel it is time to take a trip down memory lane. This is a poem I wrote a while back about an experience I had when I was a wee lass, in my early twenties.

Nothing's changed there then. Oh joy!

Lots of love,

Be Careful What You Wish For

I once shared a house with a beautiful girl
Whom we all thought should be a model
She was tall and gorgeous,
Made many people envious.
She did try to be a model but discovered
Much to everyone's surprise
That her first love was taking care of
Other people's bodies.
So she trained as a nurse -
A vocation she thought was worth it.

One day my flatmate came home
Looking flushed with success
She'd met a man while down at Oxford Street,
A handsome model from Manchester.
As a first date pressie he gave her a
Photograph from his portfolio.
We marvelled at how perfect he looked,
Teeth and smile to die for.
Why can't I attract myself a model?
I imagined myself walking down the aisle
With my very own model by my side;
Now that would certainly be worth it.

As the days went by and my flatmate dated
I pestered her about
What his personality was like.
Where did he take you?
What did he wear?
What do models eat?
What do models talk about?
Or do they simply bask in their beauty?
I made up my mind that one of these days
I was going to get my very own model,
And my life would really be worth it.

I was now bored with my flatmate's model
She never even brought him to the house
For a closer inspection!
Maybe he's just a figment of her imagination!
I decided there were too many fishes out there -
Many more professions of men to consider.
It was time I stopped lusting after
My flatmate's lover,
Cos, it really wasn't worth it.

I was walking down Oxford Street
After a night out of dancing.
I was looking gorgeous even if I say so myself.
A man approached me, asked if I would date him,
But my best friend beside me told me to ignore him.
What harm can it do, he's not a bad looker?
Yeah, pretty cute if you ignore the whiskers.
To amuse myself I allowed him to flatter me.
I smiled to myself;
This evening has certainly been worth it.

I was flanked by an admirer and my best friend;
What more could a girlfriend wish for?
We talked of nothing in particular.
I noted he had an accent;
Said he originated from Manchester.
I asked him what he did for a living.
He said he was a model.
Uh oh, this story sounds familiar!
I stared behind the stubbles and into
Those big brown lying eyes,
Saw his portfolio photo staring right back at me.
My word, this meeting has been worth it!

"I know you, you're my flatmate's boyfriend!"
He said he'd never ever heard of her.
"Of course you're the model she met
Weeks ago right here in Oxford Street."
"You've been leading me on" he said,
Furious at being discovered.
"If you didn't like me, why didn't you just say so?"
"You can talk," I said "If you're not interested in my flatmate
Why don't you just say so?"
He turned really nasty reaching out to grab me, but
My best friend came between us and pulled me away
"Come on, I told you he wasn't worth it!"

On the night bus home we discussed
Whether I should confess to my flatmate
The truth about her boyfriend's
Bad model behaviour.
I decided she deserved the truth.
Whether she still wanted him was really up to her.
I was reminded of Jesus' admonition
That thinking of adultery was as good as the deed.
Surely this lesson I've learned has been worth it.

As soon as I got home I woke my flatmate up.
"Can't it wait?" she said.
"No it's really, really important!"
Bleary eyed she asked me what was the matter.
My heart bled for what I was about to tell her.
I reached for her hands and said
"I have some bad news about your model.
Give him up, girlfriend, he simply isn't worth it."

(c) 2003 Enocia Joseph


Mind Control

"Never look at that which you do not wish to experience. No matter what the false condition may be, it must be refuted. The proper kind of a denial is based upon the recognition that, in reality, there is no limitation, for Mind can as easily make a planet as an acorn. The Infinite knows no difference between a million dollars and a penny. It only knows that IT IS." (p. 186)

"Never limit your view of life by any past experience. The possibility of life is inherent within the capacity to imagine what life is, backed by the power to produce this imagery, or Divine Imagination. If is not a question of failing or succeeding. IT is simply a question of sticking to an idea until it becomes a tangible reality. The illusion is in the way we look at things. We have looked at poverty, degradation and misery until they have assumed gigantic proportions. Now we must look at harmony, happiness, plenty, prosperity, peace and right action, until they appear." (p. 187)

"Know your own mind. Train yourself to think what you wish to think; be what you wish to be; feel what you wish to feel; and place no limit on Principle!

"The words which you speak would be just as powerful as the words which Jesus spoke, if you knew your word was the Law whereunto it was sent, but you must know this WITHIN and not merely accept it with your intellect. If you have reached a point where the inner consciousness believes, then your word is simply an announcement of Reality!" (p. 188) (The Science of Mind by Ernest Holmes)
I find that the more I focus on the One, the only Self and Power, the more powerful my thoughts are. There is only one snag: I have to be super-disciplined about what I think or there is "disaster."

Yesterday on the way into town I closed my eyes. I saw a vision of a finger with a blue stone. I wondered what that meant. Later in the evening on my bus ride home I sat opposite this man. I noticed he had a ring with a blue stone on his little finger. Now, why am I sitting opposite this man? During the journey the man coughed once. It felt as if I was the one coughing and the next thing I knew I was coughing and spluttering. I kept getting the urge to cough and my eyes were streaming. Then I remembered to change my focus away from the cough; I thought "I am Wholeness." I was instantly back to normal.

Now I realised that the vision I had was a preview of what was to come. This man was reminding me that I attract what I focus on. And my focus on on the man's cough had not only attracted it to me, I had attracted the coughs of the world. This is why I have to be disciplined and only focus on Good.

A few hours ago I came into the library to work on the Internet. The Internet wasn't working. I could see several people looking frustrated while the library staff tried to contact their IT department. They were having no joy. I put out an intent that the Internet is the Universe and it was working perfectly. Then I waited for it to come back online but nothing happened. Then I changed my focus by typing out a document on Word. After a few minutes I tried the Internet again and it was back online.

I have also started chanting again which I haven't done for a while. I chant "I AM THAT I AM" with my own melody. This way it keeps me focused on Good and not on appearances.

Be careful what you think of as you might just end up getting it.

Love and Light,

Related articles: More Examples About Focusing Your Attention; The Truth About Mind Control


Going with the Flow

Yesterday morning I went to the library to do some work and noticed it was closed with a sign on the door. Just as I was about to read the sign I saw a bus approaching so I decided to take it into town. In the bus was a dear friend I haven't seen in over a year. The amazing thing was I only thought of her the day before. I was so happy to see her. She said she was on her way to a local art gallery where she and a friend are exhibiting their calligraphy, as inspired by William Morris.

I accompanied my friend to their studio. They had beautiful calligraphy and paintings on the walls. I was so proud of their achievements. They are both extremely talented.

It was good to catch up again over what we'd both been up to over the last year. My friend also wrote my name on vellum in Gothic style, which I shall now use as a bookmark. Beautiful.

So you never know how a day is going to unfold. In a way, I did create that day as I thought of my friend and she appeared. It all worked out perfectly.

All the very best,


God Is

The following is the lyrics to a song I wrote a while back. Sorry I can't download the melody from my head to the computer screen. Maybe one day I'll record it properly.

Lots of love,

God is Power
God is Will
God is Love and
God is Peace
God is Wisdom
In your Heart it's true
God is speaking to you

God is Beauty
God is Strength
God is Life and
God is Health
God is Ageless
Looking after you
God is thinking of you

God is Goodness
God is Wealth
God is Lavish
God is Trust
God is Generous
Giving all to you
God is listening to you

God is Freedom
God is Truth
God is Joy and
God is YOU
God is Faithful
Always be with you
God is reaching to you

Tuesday, September 27, 2005


How Long is a Piece of String?

In the UK we have a saying in response to a question that cannot be answered, "How long is a piece of string?" (see meaning)

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to live as your infinite Self? Come to think of it, can you cope with infinity? In the West there is superabundant clothes, shoes, food, things, stuff. When I'm in Oxford Street in London, I marvel at how much stuff there is. Sometimes I feel a bit of a knot in my stomach signifying sensory overload.

We live in an era of information overload from the Internet, and tons of new books being published. I don't even have to go that far. Every day I get new ideas, new ways of seeing the world. If I wanted, I could write all day and night and still have lots more ideas. It is never ending.

The other day while I was browsing at the bookshop I picked up an encyclopaedia about dogs. I never realised there were so many dog breeds, hundreds. At one point I got this knot in my stomach which was telling me I was feeling overwhelmed. But when I thought about how wonderful it was that there were so many dog breeds, the tension went away.

When I identify myself as only human, this makes me finite. As a finite being, my finite body can only cope with so much food before I start to feel queasy. My finite body is subjected to finite beliefs of pain, sickness, aging and death. My finite self can't cope with infinity. I can't therefore expect a life of superabundance when a part of me is pushing it away because it's all too much for me. How do I get round this? By realising that I am the Universe, Infinity itself, having a human experience.

Last night, I had a huge plate of rice with vegetables and I felt really full for a few minutes. I observed how quickly my stomach went back to normal. My mother reckons I give her a bad name because nothing I eat makes any difference to my weight. I'm as skinny as ever. I would make an excellent clothes horse aka a model.

This is why I can eat bars and bars of chocolate and I still want more. Only when I turn my attention to other matters do I stop thinking about chocolate. So as the Universe, nothing can fill me up. I tend to eat these days out of habit, to explore different tastes and because I love sweet food. I love Weetabix so I can put lots of sugar on it. When I fancy a sweet drink, I drink sweet tea.

If I see myself as the Universe then my whole life is the Universe. This includes my body. So instead of trying to figure out how things work, I simply trust in the Universe to sort things out, or know that everything is working perfectly. In other words, I surrender the finite in exchange for the infinite Self.

Now, surrender takes practise as I've got so used to seeing the body as my body. To surrender the body is to think of the body as "our" body or the Universe's body. It is like living as a Borg in the television sci-fi series, Star Trek, where the Borg have one collective mind. Unlike the Borg, the Universe doesn't go round assimilating people but gives one the choice to surrender personal self in exchange for Infinite Self.

I love the idea of everything as the Universe. I love the fact that the Universe is responsible for maintaining my body and supports me in all ways.

Here's a thought. If you knew your body was as huge as the Universe, how much food would you need to eat to be satisfied? Hmmm! How long is a piece of string?

Love and Light,

Related articles: The Art of Surrender; How Much Good Can You Handle?

Monday, September 26, 2005


Travelling Companions

We are all travelling companions supporting one another on our journeys. Sometimes we are conscious of this and sometimes we are not. Here is one such example that happened yesterday.

My friend and I have been exchanging emails about my purpose and why I write. Here's what my friend wrote in response to my email:

"This is a great line:

'What I am passionate about is self-realisation, inspiring others to be true to who they are.'
"I had a speech teacher who stressed "Observation". That was looking at ordinary things, articulating or writing about them in a Journal and then using those as "parables" in your speaking. You do that very well. That gives people something to relate to as you make your point. I have read that even the most personal and seemingly most individual, rare and unusual experiences, when written or told, will find an audience that knows exactly what you are saying. It helps to hear it from another because it is then that we often learn the value of our experience."
My friend's response describes my writings perfectly. I've decided to reply to his email, but I am in two minds whether to go to an internet cafe or to take a bus ride to the closest library that opens on a Sunday. I decide to go to the library. It will give me the opportunity to rummage through their books on spirituality.

I have an idea what time I should leave to catch my bus but I’ve also noticed an episode of Andromeda coming up which has the gorgeous Kevin Sorbo as Captain Dylan. Damn! If I stay and watch it, I might not get on to the Internet. I owe it to myself to at least watch the opening sequence of Andromeda. Captain Dylan is gorgeous! Pfwoar! Do I have to go out now? Can't I delay the email till tomorrow? Never mind. Captain Dylan, we'll meet again soon.

I see my mother at the bus station. She's on her way back from church and waiting for her last bus home. We chat about her journey. She says her bus is always the last to arrive, particularly on a Sunday. My bus soon arrives and I'm off. As we are leaving the station I notice my mother’s bus approaching. My mother was so right as usual - her bus was the last one to arrive. The Universe has given her exactly what she expected. Hehehe!

On the bus journey I ponder about how we are always creating our realities according to our expectations. The Universe doesn’t play favourites. She finds a way to bring about everyone’s expectations and beliefs into manifestation.

During the journey, a woman I'll refer to as T sits beside me. Another woman on her right asks her if the bus is travelling on a particular road. T says it does. T asks the passenger what house number she is looking for. She tells her. It turns out T's sister used to live at that house and has recently sold it. This passenger is the new owner.

I am thinking to myself that there is no such thing as a coincidence. These two women have been brought together for a purpose. They have a chat. The bus drops the passenger right outside the house.

I’m intrigued by the synchronicity and engage T in a conversation. We discuss how amazing it is for her to sit right next to that passenger. T she believes it all has to do with timing; things happen when the time is right and you have to be open to it. I tell her that maybe she was meant to meet the woman for some purpose. T says she and her sister had heard that the new owner runs old people’s homes. T and her sister have been wondering whether the new owner was going to convert the house to another home or live there. T now knows the new owner intends to live in the house. I tell T she’s had her question answered. T explains how she ended up getting this bus. She says her son is about to go off to university and she’s in town to buy some stuff for her son. She says she could have left a lot earlier but she had some laundry to do. Seems like the Universe arranged her day perfectly so she could travel on the bus with me and the other passenger.

I tell T I love stories like this and that I intend to use her story on my blog. I give her the website address. T tells me that her Internet has been down and only just started working. She will now be able to read this story. (If you are reading T, thank you for making my journey so enjoyable and interesting. All the best to you and your family).

In the library the first book I notice is The Magical Approach by Jane Roberts. I have a quick browse. It talks about the natural self's approach to life which involves synchronicity like I've just witnessed. I respond to my friend's email.

When I leave the library I'm in two minds whether to go home or go for a bus ride. One bus arrives. I could go home via a different route but I can't be bothered. I wait for my bus instead. On a bus seat I notice some poor sod has dropped two packets of sweets. Oh well, I'll have them. Thank you, whoever you are. I'm still in two minds whether I should get off and go for a walk by the canal. The bus is now packed full. It feels like such a hassle to fight my way through these passengers so I decide to stay on. At the last stop I am still in two minds whether I should go for a walk or not. I head for the local park but then I don't feel like it. I head home instead.

When I arrive home I notice my mother is watching Hercules: The Legendary Journeys starring Kevin Sorbo. No wonder I was feeling apathetic about going for a walk, which I usually enjoy. The Universe was trying to give me alternative entertainment. So I enjoy half an hour of pure bliss watching Kevin as Hercules. Isn't life grand?

The Universe is always helping us to fulfil our dreams. Like a bus route that attracts passengers going to a similar destination, the Universe seems to attract people sharing similar dreams. It is the Universe's way of killing several birds with one stone. Haha!

As for me, I got to do what I loved as well as receiving excellent material for my blog.

Life is magical.

Love and Light,


We Are Always Right

The thing about life is we are always right. If you think the world is a dangerous place, you attract experiences that validate your beliefs. The more experiences you have, the more they reinforce your beliefs about the universe being dangerous, which end up being your truth. And the more you're right.

Earlier today, I discussed a particular bus route with my mother which she says is always delayed whenever she needs it. My mother has one experience of the bus being delayed. Based on her previous experience, she expects her next journey to be the same and attracts the same experience. The more she has the same experiences the more they become her truth. This truth is now so ingrained in her psyche, she can't imagine another reality. I use that bus route from time to time and it is always there when I need it. I can't, however, deny my mother's truth, which is valid. Nor can I deny my truth, which is equally valid.

On my way to the bus station this morning, I walked past a man who was pulling along his suitcase. While I sat down waiting for my bus the same man came and sat beside me. I asked him if he was going on holidays. He said he was on his way to Turkey; he was about to catch the local train to the airport but he was resting because of his heart. He said he was going to have an operation in Turkey, where he’s originally from. He said he's been called up twice by his local NHS (National Health Service) hospital. Each time he's been examined and then put on a waiting list. He said he would rather have the operation in Turkey which is very cheap. At least he won't have to wait for his operation. I gave him my best wishes.

My experience of hospitals, when I used to use them, was very different. Years back I had a cyst. After my doctor had examined me he sent me to the local hospital that same evening. The doctor at the local hospital asked me to return the very next day for the operation. That was pretty fast. Some people might argue that it was because of the area I was living in which had better medical facilities. That might be the case. It is also possible that my expectations attracted me to live in that area. On the other hand, I always expected excellent medical services and I always received them wherever I have lived.

So I could appreciate where this man was coming from. I couldn't possibly deny his truth. But I also know that my experience of the NHS has always been excellent. I can’t deny my truth either.

We all get what we expect. The problem is when others try to project their beliefs on other people. They see people who are happy and joyful and they want them to be miserable. They accuse those who are happy as not living in the real world. Why can't we all be miserable together?

Funny enough on my bus journey I sat beside two young college girls. They were discussing various celebrities and what they get up to. They talked about the outfits some celebrities wear and how awful they looked and how they should behave. This was an example of how one can project one’s belief and expectations on others.

I have no problem with people who choose to be miserable and expect the worse. I support them all the way in their beliefs and accept their truth. But don’t expect me to deny my truth so I can wallow in the mire with you. It isn’t going to happen, sweetheart. You are free to have your beliefs and I am free to have mine.

I live in a universe that is loving, safe, superabundant and I am always filled with joy. That is my truth and I’m sticking to it.

And, of course, I am always right.

Love and Light,

Saturday, September 24, 2005


Are You Living in a Blinkered or Open Now?

So I'm living in the Now. Right where I am there it the totality of all that I am. However....


More suspense....Hehehe.

My Now can be as expanded as infinity or as blinkered as blinkered is. What do I mean? Best way is by example on another bus ride, surprise, surprise.

Halfway through my bus journey yesterday evening, the bus driver told us he was going no further because the driver, who was supposed to relieve him, hadn't turned up. So we all got off and waited for another bus. A woman standing beside me had a look of amazement which made me smile. "Why isn't the bus moving then?" she asked. We laughed. She suggested that we hijacked the bus to our destination. I agreed. I was sure no one would notice or even care. We had a good giggle about the situation. She was on her way to work at the local hospital but she seemed relaxed.

I noticed another bus coming that wasn't going where I wanted to go. It was a mad rush to get on that bus. I wasn't in the mood to travel like a sardine in a can, so I let the mob in, including my new friend. I noticed another bus driver behind me and he told me there was an empty bus due in a minute. I stood by a man and a woman. The woman said to me, "Let's not tell those passengers there's another bus coming. Let's have the bus all to ourselves." We chuckled like Bart and Lisa Simpson. In the meantime, people were still fighting to get on the crowded bus. The bus driver told them there was an empty bus approaching. The only passenger who took any notice was the woman I had been chatting to earlier. The other passengers paid no attention. So we let the bus go. In a few seconds, the empty bus arrived that was going where I wanted to go. Bliss!

This is an example of living in an open Now. I am totally present while paying attention to people and things around me. Most of all, I am aware of my feelings. Any feelings of discomfort I have such as not wanting to get squashed is an indication to let that moment go. When I am open, I can see that the Universe is doing all She can to get me to my "destination."

I do have my moments of living in a blinkered Now. Here's one example.

I love going for long walks. Once after a long walk in the park, I was walking back to the station via the main road. Then I noticed a path with lovely trees that was running parallel to the main road. I thought it would be nice to get away from the traffic. I figured the path lead into the forests. Getting to the path meant I had to go down a slope which looked slightly dangerous. You've heard of the phrase "A rolling stone gathers no moss?" I wondered what a rolling Enocia gathered. Anyway, I decided to go for it and ran down the slope. Whew! That was exhilarating. As I walked on the path I noticed it made a loop leading to...guess where...the main road I had started from. You mean I nearly got myself injured so I could end up back on the same road? At least I got to walk on the path for a few minutes. Oh well, you've got to have a laugh!

When I am totally present and aware that I am the All There Is right here and now, my awareness is expanded to infinity. This means I'm constantly receiving data from the Universe to help me in whatever I am being at the moment. The trick is to know how to interpret this data. In my experience, data is transmuted into visions, words, sounds, feelings, smells, songs, experiences, observing nature, to name but a few.

I live in an open Now. When I get the odd blinkered Now, it's always good comedy material.

Love and Light,